I was just sitting here reading all my older posts. I had to remove a few. I haven't been up to much lately. I did NaNoWriMo in November and haven't been able to write much since. I got readdicted to RS somewhere between now and then and weened myself off it again. Most of my time online is spent at writing.com reviewing other peoples work since I  can't seem to write any of my own. 

I just finished reading Kate Forsyth's new series "Rhiannon's Ride," well the first two books anyway. The third is due out in may. She is one of my all time favorite writers.

Hmm... oh I got a new old truck. My husband and I traded our four wheeler, go cart, and my old truck for it. My internet is being an idiot.... This picture was taken with my phone so please excuse the crappyness of it.

The truck is much taller than it looks in the picture. See that red torn apart truck behind it. Yeh!! okay well there is an s-10 between the two trucks that you cant even see.

I'll send myself a pic of the rock crawler from my husbands phone when he gets home and post it for you. It started out as a 76 chevy and a 94 geo tracker. It is taller than this truck it has like two inches clearance in the garage.

I can't wait till it is ready to take to the park. It should be fun. I know Wyatt can't wait.

I guess I am going to do some work on In a Land Far Away.

Bright Blessings

So, my job at GM didn't last very long. I  missed my kids, my husband, my dog, and being able to sit down and relax for a moment. I managed it for 32 days. It was nice having the extra money while it lasted but I think even my husbnd had to agree that my life was entierly too rushed. I got very little sleep and the house was trashed. The kids hated me and the dog was annoyed. I didn't have time to make dinner or wash clothes. Things really sucked.

In the end I got a cold. I worked for a week with it getting progressively worse. Sunday night my chest hurt so bad I couldn't lift my arms and was beginning to worry that I had phnemonia. Monday night my chest hurt less but I couldnt concentrate on anything long enough to get anything done. All I could do was cough. I think they would have let me have the two days off if I had been able to get ahold of them but the only number I had for the plant simply rang and rang. So I ended up with no call no show all this week. I assume I either voluntay quit or was fired.

I am still sick and trying to get the house back in order. The kids are sick as well and so is my husband but for some reason they don't seem to be a bad as I am. Maybe it was the fact that I had hardly any rest.

Oh well, its over, kind of. I can rest now anyway. What I am really looking forward to is getting back to my book. Before I went to GM I had finally started making some real progress and then I didn't have any time to put into it. I read over some of the stuff I did manage to write while I was working and it is horrible. So I am going to take a few steps back and consider what I need to do.

Bright Blessings

Jezzilin

P.S. GM employees make a lot of money because they work their asses off every night. They move non stop and dont have time to stop and chat or even get a drink.

Working for General Motors is cool. They told me I had five days to learn two jobs. I have learned three in three days. Woot! One of the temps that came in with me is still working on his first job. I feel sorry for him, but then he could be playing dumb so that they don't see how much he can do. I am a fast learner and I take pride in that. Of course, it has gotten me in to some situations I would have preferred not to be in, but look at this one from my stand point. If you learn all five jobs in our line rotation then you rotate with the rest of the group all night. Every hour you rotate to a different job instead of doing the same thing all night. Two more jobs and I will be fully rotational but the other guy will still be stuck on the same job. I like variety. Maybe he doesn't. Oh well.

So heres how it works. There are five members on our team. Well seven if you count the temps training. We have a team leader and our team leader has a group leader. The group leader and one of my team members are good friends of my dad. From what I understand the group leader has authority over me not the team leader. The team leader is really cool though. Everyone on my team is really nice. I am glad I got such a good team.

Other news.

I joined www.writing.com It is a really cool site and I urge writers to join. There is a group there called the creative writing group and upon joining wdc you should join this group and take part in the writing classes they offer. Even with my now restricted internet time I have enjoyed this site. What happens there is writers are able to post thier work and other writers will review it. It is nice to get reviews from people who understand what your work means to you. They are always kind and helpful in their reviews and will even help you with grammar errors. I hate grammar but I am slowly catching my own mess ups. I don't really care much if my writing is proper here, as long as I get my point across.

Heh, I need a commenter. Someone comment damn it! (LOL, sorry) I must not be very interesting.

Serina is doing good with school so far. She goes back again monday. The babysitter is working out okay but Wyatt hates it when I leave him. It makes me so sad when he cries and tries to cling to me but I know I have to go. If I ever want to have a chance to get hired on at GM I have to go. If I make one mistake I can give up on my hopes and will probably be let go immediately.

Writing.

Not much. A little here and there. I need to work on Trinity's entrance into Born of Magic so that I can post it to a contest on WDC. It's one of those entrances where you are like "Damn, what the hell is wrong with this girl." I wanted a hook into the story and it was originally the first chapter, but I moved it. Now it is chapter one of book two. Holly starts book one with a really dramatic entrance. I had to move Trinity because there were too many people running around in book one. I had eight people to keep up with and six points of view. It was horrible. I split it up. Book one is Holly and Shawns point of view. Book two will be Trinity and Xavier, and book three will be Wyatt and Hailey. Book four will be a coming together of sorts mostly from Holly or Trinity's point of view. It is important to the book to have the other four points of view in the begining however. The only problem with this is that Wyatt and Hailey's book will be really short. I guess I could tack it on the end of book two. Whatever I do it will be great. It is such a good book. I don't think I will have any trouble selling it on its completion.

Comments???????? I need a few, just cause!

Bright Blessings

Jezzilin

Yes, I finally went to orientation yesterday and now I am an official General Motors employee. I go in for my first actual day of work tonight and they are already requesting vounteers for saturday. I am on third shift. I know some people will think that is terrible but it's not. I wanted third shift. One reason is because if your late once in your first 90 days your fired. Well, third shift is my garuntee that I won't be late. If I had to get up at 4am every morning it would kill me. I go to bed at 4am most of the time. So third shift won't be too hard on me. My husband who worked thirds for seven years is trying to convince me that it will be hard but he actually like the day light. I don't. Too much sun and I end up with a migraine.

Everything has gone so well for me and my family the last few days, knock on wood, that I am afraid when everything starts to fall apart it is going to be terrible. Hopefully, for my sake, everything will continue to run smoothly until march 31 2007 when my job is scheduled to end. GM said they were keeping all of our records on file and in the event that they need temps at a later date we won't have to go through the hiring process again. They will just call us in. Apparently this particular plant has never kept records of  its temps before so this is really good news.

I think the babysitter is going to work out really well. So far the children really like her and she and I have gotten on well. I wouldn't be able to leave my kids with someone I didn't like.

So here is the schedule for the next few days.

Today:

Clean the house inside and out until 5pm... Rest for awhile... dinner at 6pm... then I am off to nap untill 9pm while the husband puts the kids to bed at 8pm... I leave for work when I get up at 9pm

At 6am I get out of work and my husband goes to work. His grandmother is coming to sit with the kids until I get home. When I get here I wake them up and get serina ready for school, and Wyatt ready for the babysitter. I drop Serina off at school at 7:30am where the babysitter will also take Wyatt. I come home, go to bed. The babysitter will pick serina and her own son up from school at 12pm and take them home. I'll get up at 4pm and go get the kids. Dinner at 6, baths at 7, bed at 8, I leave for work at 9.

Rofl wow that is complicated. Tomorrow will be our first run through this process and I hope all goes smoothly. I am going to drive the little truck tonight. My husband said that if I turn the radio up really really loud it will keep me awake. So I am going to try that on my first night. I know it will be the hardest. My husband totaled his truck on his first night on first shift so he is really worried. He is going to call me when he leaves the house and talk to me until I get home, so I wont be able to turn the radio up then, but I have to do some running around after he gets to work so maybe it will help. If my eyeballs are vibrating I won't be able to sleep. Right?

I think I am going to make a CD of music I can't help but sing to. and maybe run to walmart and by a set of headphones for my CD player, the dog ate mine, so I can listen at work.

Bright Blessings,

~Jezzilin~

The time has almost arrived. In like fifteen hours I will have to get up and start my first day as an official General Motors employee. LOL! I just made myself even more nervous if possible. I still can't figure out how I am going to manage getting up at 4am. I go to bed a 4am, but I don't get up at 4am. I hope they put me on third shift.

I had to put my dog outside cause my son keeps giving him all his food. Right now the dog is standing on the porch barking and the boy is trying to get the door open to let him back in. Sometimes I think they get along a little too well.

Oh, the steak was really good last night. It was the best I have had in several months. We go out to eat now and then and even a thirty dollar steak at some fancy resturant can't compare to what I ate last night. I savored every bite. :D Yep.

Saddly, I have to resand the bar. The little devils that I call my children and my dog walked all over it while the polyurethane was still wet. I might put another coat on and see if it covers the prints. In case your wondering, the bar is currently laying on the floor in the middle of my living room. I don't have a garage or workshop and it is too hot to work on outside. Too hot? 105 farenheit. Yes Hot! Ah gotta love these Tennessee summers.

I have yet to rip the wall out. My bummer of a husband says we have to fix the bathroom floor before we destroy anything. :( I was so looking forward to destroying a wall. Now I have to work my but off on that stupid bathroom. sighs Fixing the bathroom involves removing the old floor which, oh joy, was made from particle wood. EH! Not only is this stuff nailed to the joists It is also glued. bangs head on table. I had to go buy an old fashion draw knife so that I could get the stuff off when we did the laundry room floor. Then no matter what you do little pieces of wood get stuck to the butt of your pants and poke you the whole time. I hate partical borad. Ecspecially when it is all swollen with water damage like ours. What kind of idiot puts partical board in the bathroom?

Anyway... Those two little things at the top that ask for my mood and music. I hate those things. I really want to change them but what should I change them to? I have no idea... someone give me an idea, please?

I wish I could go get this orientation done today, waiting sucks. I have not been able to keep myself busy enough to not think about it and it is driving me nuts. I can't even focus long enough to write. I did manage to get the bar sanded and the first coat of ployurethane brushed on but other than that I am just waiting, and waiting, and waiting.

I found a babysitter. She is really nice, and from Michigan... cool. Her son is in kindergarten with serina, different class though. She has a daughter a little younger than Wyatt. They also have a swimming pool so Serina is really excited.

We were supposed to go camping this weekend but my father-in-law decided he needed to fix a piece of tin on a barn roof. So, we stayed home last night so my husband could help in early this morning. It is 8:00 pm and we had planned to leave about 10am. Sigh, oh well. He still isn't home. Last I heard they bought an old piece of shit tractor and they were getting ready to haul dirt. What the hell happened to fixing one little piece of tin. Whenever my father-in-law calls to have my husband come help with one little thing that will take five minutes it turns into an all day thing. It really wouldn't bother me if it wasn't every single day until dark, and I am sitting here waiting to make dinner, starving, but I don't want to make it twice. The kids had a ham sandwich but they are getting hungry again.

I got my In a Land Far Away site built then quit working on it. Somehow, while I was building it, I got back on track... Or changed tracks I guess on a different story. This one is called Born of Magic and I have been working on it for several years. I decided to make the first chapter the whole first book. I always thought it was a little cluttered and this has solved it. There is way to much explanation in the first few chapters. Each chapter that I have wrote for this book could litterally be it's own book. The chapters were about fourty pages long, I never could make small chapters, and there were a lot of places where two of three weeks had gone by. These weeks were just explained away by one of the characters as average days, nothing happened, or a quick explantion of a series of events. Not anymore. Ha ha. Roller coaster. Although, as I stated earlier damn GM is making it hard for me to function.

I think I am going to get drunk! That's it. I'll sit on the front porch, get drunk, read my book (eye of the world, robert jordan-- again) and cook new york strips.... yyyyyyyuuuuuuuummmmmmmmm! Sounds good. If I could just get my legs to move.....

Okay here I go...

Bright Blessings

~Jezzilin~

GM finally called yesterday. I have to go in for Orientation Monday. I probably wont start work until the 14th though. I hope I am able to keep up with the line and my wrist doesn't give me too much trouble. Troy will be very disappointed if I cant handle the job for the duration.

I took Serina to her first day of school today. We really just had to meet the teacher and were there less than an hour. Our school has a phase in program for kindergarteners. She will go to school, with me, thursday until noon. She won't go back until next wednesday. That day she goes alone until noon, then again the following monday, and finally the next wednesday she starts going daily all day. I think she liked it today. She got to play with some of the toys and made her first friend.

My husband and I started making a bar for our kitchen. We made it out of rough cut lumber. It is extreamly heavy. It must be at least 12 maybe 14 foot long. It is going to be awesome. I need to charge my camera but I will take some pictures so that you can see what we are doing. There is a wall that is coming down and cabinets being moved, plus the floor that is falling through has to be fixed and we are putting down ceramic tiles. It should look cool.

LOL  I finally found something to do with my blog.... Keep track of all the things I destroy in my house. I tend to destroy things before I make them pretty. I wish I had photo documented the camper and bathroom.

Guess I'll go charge the camera.

Bright Blessings

~Jezzilin~

I hate insurance companies. My husband pays $80 a week for our insurance and it is worthless. I took two of the kids to the doctor for booster shots, THAT THE GOVERNMENT SAYS THEY HAVE TO HAVE before they can go to school. I got my bill in the mail. $791 before my insurance paid. Guess how much the bill was after insurance paid. Go ahead make a guess I'll give you a second...

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$791, wait you might be thinking, isnt that the same amount. Observant arnt you. Yes, infact, that is the same amount. What is the point of having insurance, you may be thinking. That is precisely what I am thinking. $80 a week for absolutely nothing.

Thats not even half of it. My husband has a toe nail fungus.... EEEEEEWWWWWW.... it is gross. I took him to the doctor, who the insurance paid nothing for, and he says, "Take one a day for 90 days."

"Okay," my husband says and we carry the perscription to the phamacy... Later we return to find that our insurance has refused to pay anything on the scrip and it is $364 for 30 pills. Add. That is over $1000 for the full scrip. We called the doctor and the doctor said, "No more monkeys jumpin on the bed..." oops wrong doctor. "That is the only thing there is that you can take. There is no generic or other brand."

"Great," we say and forget about it.

Now this is why I love my parents-in-law. My husband goes over there last night a month after all this other happened and he makes some comment about ripping his toenail off. His mother worries about everything and proceeds to tell him that he needs the medicine. He has to have the medicine. His dad comes home. Get the medicine, you need the medicine. The husband tells them about our insurance problems. Now my husband is half cocked after being yelled at for four hours about not doing anything. He went to work today with every bill we have gotten and he is going to yell at the insurance rep.

Great, I am thinking. This can't be good. I am going to have to bail him out of jail. I just want to drop the worthless insurance and hope no one gets too sick. I don't even go to the doctor. I only take the kids for thier shots. If I get sick I struggle through it. If the kids get sick I used to pump them full of tylenol and motrin but motrin makes serina's temp go sky high so just tylenol now. The kids have never really been sick. A slight cold here, a stomach virus there. Nothing really bad. A lot of times I can call their doctor and tell the doctor what they have and he writes me a scrip. Like a few months ago we had a bout with pink eye. I never took the kids to the doctor. I just called. Insurance didn't pay any on the scrip btw.

It is gonna be funny when my husband comes home and tells me what I told him last night. "The reason they are not paying is because we have not met our deductables."  I'm not stupid I know what is going on. The fact is that we do not go to the doctor enough in one year to get the deductables paid. I'm sure the insurance is great after the deductables are met. It will never happen though. We have a $750 a piece deductable plus a all in family of 1500. ROFLMAO! Insurance companies suck.

When I was about five people started calling me a card shark. I remember playing go fish, old maid, uno, skipbo, and all the other kid card games and no matter who I played I won. I know that some older people let kids win but trust me that wasn't the case. My parents used to get frustrated and refuse to play. At about seven they taught me to play eucher. That was a fun game. We always played with matchsticks or pretzels.

My cousin who is about ten years older than me lived with us for a while. We shared a room and she and I would play rummy every night. We always kept our score in the same note book and just carried it over from night to night. The notebook was almost full when she moved out.

My other cousin used to play a game called books and runs that was similar to rummy but you used two decks of cards and had to make twelve hands through out the game. The twelve hands rose in difficulty until you had to have like a straight ace to king. Or a book of eight. It was a hard but fun game.

My brother and his friends introduced me to spades at about twelve.

I always liked poker. It has always been my favorite. Ecspecially to play with my husband.  Generally, the bets don't involve chips. It's a variation of strip poker but much more fun.

We go to the river and camp every couple of weekends to camp. Everynight there is a poker game. Small stakes mind you, a dollar or two. Ice money we call it. Oddly, I have never won at the river. I guess I am too drunk to play a decent hand of cards. That and one of the usual players confuses me. I never know when he has something and when he is just betting for the sake of betting.

The past few weeks I have been getting into a wpt shotout on absolute poker. I do pretty well but for some reason my husband always comes home, takes it away from me, and looses all my money. I will spend like two or three hours in this thing and then poof its gone. I don't think he has grasped the concept that if I win the thing I get a seat at wpt. In a tourney that he never touches I can make it to the top ten. I have done it several times, but never for a seat at wpt.

So who plays cards? What kind of games do you like?

Oh if you join absolute poker and it asks for a referral name, give them Jezzilin!